"Holding Out for the Big Money"

Have you ever seen one of those game shows where the contestant just keeps winning and winning, but chooses to keep trying to get the "really big money"? I'm not a big fan of game shows because I am too impatient, so I'm just thinking, "take the money and run." Some, however, would say "hang on, don't give up, this could be your big chance!"

As I think about a situation that has consumed my prayers and aspirations and I have believed God for with absolute, unwavering faith, I have to consider "am I supposed to take the money and run." Not really, but God has been dealing with me about my perception and even my desires. I have quoted verbatim to kids over the years,
Ps. 37:4, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I have gone on to share "my great wisdom" and explain to them that as they consume the word and walk with God their very desires will change and be conformed to the Will of God..Wow, what a word!! It never ceases to amaze me how I can feel like I have such an understanding, then turn around and find I'm like a "new born babe."

As for me, I am in no way ready to "give up on my request." Without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him” (Hebrews 11:6). Instead, I am re-evaluating my positioning in this process. Since I have dedicated myself to standing firm, quoting the word, focusing all my attention upon this need, I have to admit at times, I have become so consumed with my petition I become almost paralized. My son recently said to me, "Mom, I think you've gotto go on and do whatever it is that God has called you to do instead of standing back and waiting for God to resolve this situation." I'm not quite sure how I do that, but I am certainly seeking God for direction.

"Lord, today, I am asking for your wisdom. My desire is to know You in a new way that maybe I've not experienced. My faith is steadfast and my hope is in You. I place my trust and those things that concern me in Your hands."